fuck.

it's true. the truth does come out after a drink.

what really "grinds my gears" is people. people like act they have problems in they're simple meaningless life. people that cry and moan about small stupid fucking things. people that act they're hard done by when they're not. i know plenty of worthy decent good people with problems. problems beyond any fucker that decides to moan about on facebook. fuck you.

my theory of it all. think of somebody worse of than yourself. think positive. think of good things that have happened or will happen in the future.

i've turned into this negative pretentious horrible person that can't accept the nature of the human race.

fuck karma. it doesn't exist. if it did, none of this shit would happen to good, honest people. good people would be happy. bad things would happen to bad people.

next time you decided to moan about a shitty little minor problem in your happy fucking life, think of someone worse of than you, you selfish, simple creature.

Chump

Soon to be a pot washer, what has my life come to. It's money but wheres my dignity? Throughout this summer I will be hibernating within my household only to leave for cigarettes and whiskey (obviously not including Glastonbury)

The first year in my life i wont be travelling abroad but Newquay should be a laugh! I've worked out that I'll have no life next year as my rent is more than my loan.

What can I say, I'm glad to be home to see all my friends well some of them, but i don't half miss the Epsom group also. I miss London, University, gatherings at Robs/Joe's, and of course music discussions. I DON'T miss, washing up, washing my clothes, cleaning my room and walking back from Woodcote.

Since I've been home my creativeness has drastically dropped. Barely picked up my guitar, hardly wrote a word and not much reading. My life in a sentence over the last too weeks is basically whiskey, tobacco and xbox, Winsford is awful I refuse to go out anywhere but the Rifleman. Debees? No thank you.

it's all about Glasto..

I'm sorry if you didn't get a Glastonbury ticket and you've resorted in attending the famous shamble on V Festival but hey .. at least it's a music festival (just about). Me on the other hand will be there, yes I am a Glastonbury virgin.

Don't get me wrong I'd be lying if I said I wasn't disappointed with the main stage headliners, but you'd struggle to find a soul that isn't disappointed. Never been a fan of U2 personally not ever since Bono dug his nose into politics. Muse are sellouts in my opinion, Matt Bellamy has lost the plot in my books. Stevie Wonder.. well I guess there is much to say really, everyone appreciates him, but liking his music is a tad different.

Other than some of musicians attending are unreal, heres some of bands I MUST see.

The Dead Weather
Broken Social Scene
The National
Two Door Cinema Club
Ray Davies
Faithless
The Flaming Lips
Foals
Gang of Four
Grizzly Bear
Temper Trap
LCD Soundsystem
We Are Scientists
Tubelord
Frightened Rabbit
The Mystery Jets
The Magic Numbers
Levellers
Phoenix

Yes, just yes.

Half of them are bands I've never seen before, mainly because I usually go to Leeds/Reading. Not this year! I'm sure after my first visit it all begins.

Everyone should have this..

Tubelord - Our first American Friends




Yes maybe I am a tad behind with posting this, but I just can't get over how good it is. Everything about their songs inspires you (well me) to wanna play music. "Pop songs for rock kids" yeah that's about right in my case. Awkward time signatures combined with jittery fun pop choruses is everything I enjoy about the Kingston trio. Supreme with their harmonies the guitar work is no slouch: trebly clean indie riffs played with an edged sensation satisfied my ears.

I don't think theres been an underground band in the UK that has caught my eye as much as these guys. Yeah the singer does combine the looks of Rivers Cuomo and Draco Malfoy, so what! That's cool to me and he doesn't exactly try to hide it.

This band are going to be round for a long time, a consistent album of Pop/Rock soon to be classics.

Save your grace

Is it okay to be happy to get away from the town you lived in all your life?
is it normal to want to get loaded every night?
Is it normal that I'm 20 and never been in love?
Is it weird that I'm on a dream university course but I still struggle with motivation?

These are questions I constantly ask myself, I'm sure you have an answer for at least one of them.

Anyway, back in Epsom now. I'm completely broke but I'm happy?
A lifeless month up North is the reason.
Waking up late everyday.
Staying in bed all day.
Constantly arguing with good friends.
Taking pity on my beloved but hypocrite mother.
Failing to pick up my guitar.
Barely listening to music.
Spending nights out with people I despise.
Fighting for meaningless reasons.

I look back now and I achieved nothing.
Not one creative activity involved.
A waste of fucking time in other words.

Guess I'm glad to be around people that don't talk shit half the time.
I suppose most of the journo boys are used to literate conversations.
I'm not. I socialise with musically mindless chart phased idiots.
I suppose thats harsh, I love them dearly but know I've met new people I'm complete.
Even doing a music practice course at college I never actually had a proper in depth music discussion.

In a cheesier term I'm trying to say.. Well I'm kinda glad I met these.. music mad gentleman!

I was born in the wrong decade

I'm not going to lie, I struggled building my list. I even had to search through old Cd's a grew up listening to.

I honestly think i should of been born in the 50's growing up listening to music from the 60's. I blame my hippy of a brother feeding me biased knowledge at a young age converting me into a music hypocrite of new bands.

Any how here is my top 70 albums of the decade..

Yes 70! Meaning I was too lazy to do a 100, maybe another time I'll finish it.




1. In Rainbows - Radiohead

Radioheads most recent, but my third favourite behind Pablo Honey and OK computer. Every track is easy to listen to, Thom's vocals at his peak, and melodically genius like from Johnny.

2. Queens of the Stone Age - Songs for the Deaf

Josh Holmes creates a unique distorted guitar effect accompanied with deep vocal drones. Each number is different and mind blowing. The Kinks cover at the end sets of a fantastic first album.

3. Bloc Party - Silent Alarm

Varied in tone and stylistically uncategorisable, the best of Bloc Party. Structured carefully and experimentally brilliant. Kind of a shame there shit now.

4. Radiohead - Kid A

The succession of experimental music. Hardly an ear for a guitar in the album, but it doesn't matter every number has a different characteristic. Takes some time to listen and understand but well worth the wait.

5. De Loused in the Comatorium - The Mars Volta

Every aspect of music is phenomenal, Strong lyrics presented in minor melodies accompanied by powerful guitars, keyboards and awesome drumming. Drug inflated songs structured with Rock n Roll aspects. Some of the most talented musicians of the decade at full flow.

6. Funeral for a friend - Casually dressed and deep in conversation

7. Origin of Symmetry - Muse

8. Sleeping with Ghosts - Placebo

9. Is this it - The Strokes

10. Amnesiac - Radiohead

11. The Green Album - Weezer

12. The Dead 60's - The Dead 60's

13. The Coral - The Coral

14. Take it to the Skies - Enter Shikari

15. Puzzle - Biffy Clyro

16. Renegades - Rage against the Machine

17. Pinkerton - Weezer

18. Fever to Tell - Yeah Yeah Yeah's

19. Welcome to the North - The Music

20. The Eraser - Thom Yorke

21. The Fake sound of Progress - Lost Prophets

22. Meds - Placebo

23. The World is yours - Ian Brown

24. The Datsuns - The Datsuns

25. Absolution - Muse

26. White Blood Cells - The White Stripes

27. Hail to the Thief - Radiohead

28. What ever people say I am ,that's what I'm not - The Arctic Monkeys

29. Heathen Chemistry - Oasis

30. Consolers of the Lonely - The Raconteurs

31. Discovery - Daft Punk

32. Make up Brake down - Hot Hot Heat

33. A Weekend in the City - Bloc Party

34. Start Something - Lost Prophets

35. Performance and cocktails - Stereophonics

36. Invaders must Die - The Prodigy

37. Them Crooked Vultures - Them Crooked Vultures

38. Absolution - Muse

39. Kasabian - Kasabian

40. Dig out your Soul - Oasis

41. Graduation - Kanye West

42. In Silico - Pendulum

43. Take off your pants and Jacket - Blink 182

44. Hours - Funeral for a friend

45. The Red Album - Weezer

46. Grey Britain - The Gallows

47. Bleed American - Jimmy Eat World

48. The Marshall Mathers Lp - Eminem

49. Hybrid Theory - Linkin Park

50. Louder Now - Taking Back Sunday

51. Violet Femmes - Violet Femmes

52. Standing of the Shoulders of Giants - Oasis

53. Crisis - Alexisonfire

54. Ash Wednesday - Elvis Perkins

55. The '59 sound - Gaslight Anthem

56. Audioslave - Audioslave

57. Trance Anthems - Dave Pearce

58. Chocolate Starfish and Hot Dog flavoured Water - Limp Bizkit

59. The Libertines - The Libertines

60. Ok Go - Oh no

61. Panic Prevention - Jamie T

62. Ragged Wood - Fleet Foxes

63. Maladroit - Weezer

64. Elephant - The White Stripes

65. Inner Party System - Inner Party System

66. Always outnumbered, Never outgunned - The Prodigy

67. The Remote Part - Idlewild

68. Youth & Young Minded - Kings of Leon

69. Wolf Mother - Wolf Mother

70. With Love and Squalor - We are the Scientists

I forgot what I didn't miss..

Two weeks since I've arrived back up north and quite frankly.. it's killing me. You don't realise what you didn't miss until you recap on the antagonising things you were glad to get away from in the first place.

As much as I love my mum she's a hypocrite. She can't stop moaning, it's like she's making up for the time I've been away and catching up. I clean up after myself and stay out of everyone's way but she still finds a minor problem and exaggerates it to an extent you just laugh and walk away which in my mum's case makes matters worse.

There's been a number of cases where she's made clear mistakes, where she can't come clean and hold her hands up and say..I'm sorry.. I'm wrong. Instead she'l put the blame on someone else (meaning me) and in the end start screaming at the peak of her voice.

Not a single penny I've asked of her or my step dad but they still consist of nagging at me. Fair enough I could have got a job for two weeks but that's it.

I've had no motivation to do anything at all. The first was top, I was overwhelmed to see my old friends and we partied a fair bit. Now that's over it's just back to old feeling of this depressing lifeless town. A constant relish of negative attitude towards meaningless things bores me.

I stay in bed until mid day at least. Get up. Eat. Play my xbox. Watch Television. Sit on facebook. Then end up at the pub at night. Wow.. if somebody was telling me that' what they had been doing within the last week I'd advise them to sort out the life and do something creative.

I can't wait to go back down south. I love the feeling of being responsible for the first time in my life. The feeling knowing your parents are at a distance and have no power of you at all.